Meanwhile in another part of the room, Celeste asks Logan for a favour: Would you do something for me? What is it? Logan asks, feeling unmotivated to carry out any requests. Will you walk to the top of the hill on the other side of the stream and find a medicinal herb for Muriel? She’s having trouble sleeping at night, due extreme pain. This herb grows abundantly on the hilltop about three miles from here. The herb will ease her pain and help her get a good nights sleep. Will you do this for her? Logan is genuinely fond of Muriel yet is faced with inner turmoil when Celeste presents her request. Whats wrong with her? Logan asks. Celeste explains: She wants to keep it a secret for now. She really doesnt want to trouble anyone. I dont know. Im not sure, he says. Logan really wants to help but feels he cant. In fact, he really doesnt feel like doing anything. Besides, going up a hill doesnt sound easy. He doesnt feel like battling with any obstacle, whether its Mount Everest or just a tiny hill. Muriel is a great woman, but if I feel so tired and upset, I shouldnt even try. Celeste doesnt realize how difficult this task is for me. I can imagine how each step of those three miles to the hill will be excruciatingly difficult. The hot sun would be beating down on me. Then, Id get to that enormous hill and that would drain the remaining strength out of me After another moments reflection, Logan responds with a resolute, No! Why not? Well, I just cant. Why cant you? Im not motivated. What keeps you from being motivated? Im just too tired, too exhausted. Basically, Im just a hopeless case. I wasnt even able to hand in my reports on time at work. So, you feel that you are a hopeless case? Yes! Have you always been hopeless? Well, no. Then, how can you identify yourself with a permanent label of being hopeless when at times you have shown yourself to be resourceful in the past. Since you have been resourceful in the past, then you can be so now. Isnt that so? Yeah, I guess so. What seems to be keeping you immobilized is your label that youre hopeless and because you feel you are hopeless, you stop trying. When you dont try, you feel even more miserable and hopeless. It becomes a self-fulfilling tragedy. After a long time, Logan begins to feel glimmers of hope. His doubts start to leave him as he gains a belief in his capabilities. To confirm these positive feelings, he requests: Could you expand on what you said, Celeste? Sure, Logan. Its like this: If you put motivation before action, then you will continue to wait until you feel motivated. On the other hand, if you take action, then the motivation will surely follow. Okay; that sounds good but I have depression. I cant control how I feel. We can discuss your feelings another time. Why dont you take action now, and then evaluate how you feel. Go to the hill and get the herb for Muriel. Okay, Ill give it a try. I really like Muriel and I do want to help her. Point me to the hill. Thats the spirit! Celeste enthusiastically cries as she points to the far off hill and gives him a description of the medicinal herb as he leaves: Youre looking for a plant that grows about 2 meters high. It has creamy white flowers growing together into a rounded cluster or umbel like Queens Anne Lace. Its an unmistakable plant and youll easily spot it. Good luck on your journey! Excerpt from Nexus: A Neo Novel. Buy from:
Action Before Motivation
November 14, 2006 by nexusnovel
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